Down with flu and cough during fieldcamp, damn I felt so weak so much that I've no motivation to go on..
I was extremely sedated with everything I'm doing especially when it concerns everything inside..
Lock in a cage from my freedom...
and sulkiest thing is its about scolding vulgarities rather than an actual preaching
my body feels broken, i injured my hip muscle, my backache is forever cracking, my left ankle seems malfunctioning and I could not walk properly, Is it all due to the several events that strained my movements?

First phase, BMT, Second Phase BSLC, Third Phase > I think I might collapse and faint
I'm not sort of exercise man, but when coming to do things properly, perhaps I would do within my strengths, but when coming to proceed with all the straining work, it overruns my body overtime and burns me out... its like excessive drinking of alcohol for 4months straight...
I'm spoiling, I'm torn apart
Am I able to carry on

If you're out there, I hope you could understand and give me a better path to the next chapter

PS: I'll be ending BSLC next week, and its chinese new year, Most probably won't find happiness yet, but hey, lets cheer up and let our spirits accelerate high^^

This will be a fast one, I'll be booking in soon, will be having grandslam and wanderer next week from wednesday all the way till saturday, will be shack and tiring and No Bathing >< :( which is wat i hate most and feel most uncomfortable about.
I sprain my leg, injured my ankle, was send to nuh for scanning, got 3days attend c, will have attend B tomorrow.. Hais..
Hope all will be good, will be going tekong this wednesday le, what a spot to place our field camp, but every sispec guys go through it though... I hope it wouldn't be too tough for my leg to handle, have not yet recovered fully ><

PS:: I'm seriously bored in camp, and I hated so much to go back in...

Had nights off today, will be going back to camp soon
Everyday is just too pathetic ><
Gonna have section life firing, wonder how scary and dangerous will that me, God please ensure my safety on Thursday
I missed time, its the only way where I can venture back and return to the days filled with excitement and motivation
Now is just vaguely unforeseen, everyday is a pain and torture to my freedom
Everyone's talking about their girl
I'm dreaming about my passion, I'm writing down my thoughts at one corner
its very simple yet I felt nothing of solitude, but then deep down, its another cause of pain being unable to do the part I wished too...
Maybe its time for me to deny my existence for the 2years, perhaps I should just think nothing of it but a waste... Don't Show Me Evil Sides Of The World

How many hours and how many days, Love is slipping away
How many seasons and how many years, in tears
How many Centuries and how many lives, in fear

All because of intellect, greed and power
Doesn't feeling show any affectionism now?
This is no Paradise, This is a place where my mind would not cherish a single bit of time
Its a destruction of my ideology
Its conflicting my moral
Its contradicting my dreams

Dear God, help me, save me out ... I need a miracle